the midnight streets feel dead. 46.

forget prior engagements, cancel your plans
let's do something amazing
while we still can
and i'm floating above you, high on your kiss
we're splashed like paint on the pavement
a beautiful waste


i'll drop bombs in the valley, if he comes near you
i'm gonna make something happen
watch what you do
i can't breathe underwater
i can't stand in the air
but i can tear up your whole world, and dare not even care.


so make lists of your lovers, people you kiss
then tear them to pieces, forget they exist
my hometown's wasteland
frightened of ghosts
we're splashed like paint on the pavement
this isn't my home


i'll drop bombs on the valley, if he comes near you
i'm gonna make something happen
watch what you do
i can't breathe underwater
i can't stand in the air
but i can tear up your whole world, and dare not even care


i can't breathe underwater
i can't stand in the air
but i can tear up your whole world and dare not even care.

i defy you, stars. 45.

beautiful.

i just realised im back to posting once a day lol. wow.

um, feeling pretty down tonight. usually i'd talk to you but...yeah. others are compensating but it just isn't the same. i know it has to be done but it's harder than i thought.

tomorrow should distract me. maybe i'll see if you wanna come to Amy's 18th.

i feel like watching Perfume.

~let's be more than; this

just watch my wildest dreams come true. 44.

i love how when i knock my desk my joker and bumblebee bobbleheads go spastic. its funny :)

i just found out Hayley Williams had a photo of her topless leaked on twitter :( poor Hayley...although i am disappionted in her a a role model for having a topless photo of herself -.-. unless its a fake lol. gah what happened to my favouritest singer ><

up to 6mm now. two more jumps to go and i'll have my 10mm wolf ones :) cant believe they cost me $28 lol.

i dont know what else to say really...im still working on my assignments. and still talking to someone. the meeting part is starting to become a hassle...wednesday will provide progress.


yeah im gonna go to bed now.

i miss talking to you, for real.

Notions. 43.

oooh hai ;D

i have so much i want to say but nothing fits.

if i could open my arms

and span the length of the isle of Manhattan

i'd bring it to where you are

making a lake of the East River and Hudson

if i could open my mouth

wide enough for a marching band to march out

they would make your name sing

and bend through the alleys and bounce off other buildings..

thanks for the memories; 42.

for some really annoying reason i've been remembering alot of stuff lately. i remember texting you all day, laughing at the stupid things you'd say and getting looked at funny cause im laughing at my phone...i remember seeing movies like last year with friends i dont even talk to anymore. and i remember schoolies : not cool. theres alot more but im not going into it.
ive been wondering where my memories have gone, but now im remembering them im not sure i want them back. its like something that would have been better off unsaid. im so unsure about everything; with these memoiries...the emotions that went with them are also coming back. mainly one in particular. i think i'll quit while im ahead, i feel better once ive put it to paper, so to speak.

um, 9 tafe assignments overdue, also not cool.

having a 100msg inbox limit is another thing that is not cool.

hoarding. 41.

i swear i have too much useless crap in my room.

it hasnt really been okay for the past few days. and i think its only a matter of time until something happens due to the build up of stress in this house.

had a rather interesting conversation last night. well, had a few actually. one i didnt enjoy so much but it had to be said. one i quite enjoyed, and its made me trust someone more. and the other is just the normal one i've been having till 1am ;D
but with that said, im not sure i wanna go anywhere with this. its like he's trying to point out the negatives. maybe hes just jealous, he did get out-tuned rofl.

other than that, i keep taking days off TAFE by telling myself its a waste of time, yet im not even doing my assignments on the days i take off. i'm slowing getting around to doing them, but too slowly.

all in all i dont have much to complain about these days, everything thats a problem in my life i've created anyway. but i think i changed my mind about one thing..

i do care i hope everythings alright;

Cosmic Love. 40.

well i just loled pretty hard. but it was an annoyed and sickened 'lol'.

351 msgs over facebook in 4 days. and i cant count the texts over the other ten days. what is going on.



oh and, um, i'm pretty sure you're a dickhead. kthanksbye.