hot milo with melted icecream instead of milk? how cute. 39.

gun-sword? cool.

Final Fantasy 13 is amazing.

Onto recent matters; i'm pretty sure i should make something of this while i have the chance.

forgetting about everything else and trying to make this happen. eh things fix themselves with time, i cant have everything.

tafe is terrible. but i wouldnt be doing anything else otherwise. hot milos with melted icecream instead of milk are great by the way.

i wish i could cross my arms, and cross your mind.

Can We Pretend. 38.

so i was turning in my sheets, and once again i could not sleep;

so my mum took my DS away from me, and now im having major withdrawls haha. but seriously...i need to play pokemon :S

I See Stars sound so much like Of Machines! with the clean vocals and same style of music...but Devin and Dylan are just equally cute hah. i love music x)

hmm, coffee club trial tomorrow night, really nervous about that. even considering i might not even have a chance of working there but fingers crossed right? if i do a good enough job Bek might consider me *sigh*. work tonight, first nightfill work. also nervous. still have a million overdue assignments for TAFE, one i promised would be ready by next tuesday...so i better start looking up candid photography.

i want to be EIGHTEEN. i cant stress that enough. hah its killing meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. i want to go out and drink and party and and...get tattoos. x)

but thats enough of me, im too tired to think of anything else to write...and im working till 12 tonight so bleah. byeblogger.

sometimes the truth hurts more than lies; found out that life meant nothing today, forgot, the very next morning...i am comfortably confused, thats no thanks to you

i've been too busy playing pokemon. 37

aha Vulpix :)

well it has almost been a month, i thought i better not let it get any longer, cause not blogging for a month must be bad in some way x)

ahhh let me think. i've played SoulSilver for almost 70 hours. made a little progress with my assignments...decided those feelings are only lust and won't help anyone. trying to work on the OTHER one because for some stupid reason i think i need it, when it'll just end stupidly like every other time. im really craving something right now. and i have to get up in 8 hours. bleah. 8 hours stopped being enough sleep a year ago.

so many tattoo ideas. hurry up and be november already. i dont even know what im doing for my 18 but it had better be good.

i actually have to sleep; but a full update soon; i promise!

with you on my mind, and my heart in your hands, screaming; break me

come home. 36.

when we were young, we didn't think before we'd act.

now i have another reason to want to be 18 already.

i really love my new dress, its so cute. wearing it so Supanova tomorrow x) kudos to me, cause its suitable for a 18th tomorrow night also ^.^

i had a horrible nightmare the other night, i still remember it clearly and i wont forget the details. i remember somehow getting pregnant, which the chance of that happening in reality is kind of impossible just to point out, and just the feeling i felt, it was still there when i woke up and it felt so real. i just hated myself, no "child" of mine could ever reverse that feeling. i think i ended up killing myself too. so ah, point of story is im not EVER ever ever ever ever ever EVERRRRR...everrrrrrrrrrrrr having kids. like, not a chance in hell. i wont ever have sex if i have to, that really doesnt bother me in the slightest :)

but anyway, Supanova is tomorrow, its gonna be a blast as always :) i dont have much else to say, except i tried something tonight and, i liked it. so where does this go from here i wonder.

home, let me come home, home is when ever i'm with you.

i know where i want to fucking be. 35.

i wanna have it all; i don't know how since i can't even get one. ohwell. things might change soon.
fuck not having anything to do tonight. how fucking miserable am i?
i have like 2 things planned for next week, which is my week off TAFE. i wanted to fill the week with things to do; the marathon tonight would've started it off amazingly. but nooooo. whatever, why do you care if i spend my money anyway?!
argh i hate my life.
fuck coles for not giving me enough shifts to have money to be able to have a LIFE.

anyway, i dont really have anything else to say..

see you in a month. 34.

dork.

i didn't take these; but i was there

i was stuck between a few things the other day, but i think it's all come right now.

i dont think it's a "like" like, i'm hoping it's more like a brother-sister thing, since he picks on me all the time :/ hope you have fun in China, Mitchy.

and; no more going to chermside cinemas for me. Stephen looks ridiculously cute in a vest. or...maybe every once in a while x)

so i'm looking forward to having next week off, but it'd be better if i was working more, and they rostered me on for next saturday when i'm going to Supanova -.- stupid coles strikes again.

fuck i love easter lol. cadbury solid milk chocolate eggs ftw.

i can't believe how much i hassled Josh into making plans, and when he actually asked me i realised i was busy anyway. worst person ever? i think so. whoops :/

but anyway, anything else that's happening i don't much care about. it'll sort itself out. i think i have to go clean my room -.-

though your lips still drip, intentions, they keep me wanting more...

Seeing Red. 33.

day burns down to night, burns the edge of my soul. in the night i break into sparks of suns, and become fires end; the dust of bones. night knifes my breath swallows whole my tounge, turn back, reverse, return. in the night i see the real concealed in days bright lie. eyes stitched shut, white teeth smile, sleep walks and talks, and feet mark time to the drumless beat. - Nick Powell, The Invisible.

Seeing Red.

so who the fuck are you to tell me who to be?

i swore along these ashes strewn across my bed

you mean nothing to me

i let go of everything we used to see

and opened up to the future

why did it have to be so hopeless until now?

i closed my ears and listened with my eyes to the sound of your heartbeat

ever changing

winter took its toll on you, i see, my love

who knows how long you'll last

i'll lie through my fucking teeth to save you

but why's my heart so hard to reach

i can't make up my mind

save the lost cause or grasp onto the unrequited

point me in the right direction

give me a sign

bright lights spell out your name through these city streets.